Happy!!
Man oh man am I happy. I love trusting God cuz da rewards are awesome!! I thought I might not have any money at all for 6 weeks cuz I forgot to sort out a change of bennifit and my sister was like "we finish school on the 9th nov and theres a 6 week stand down period (which means without money) for the unemployment benifit". I paniced so much at first. Then I just prayed to God and left it all up to him. After a peacefull sleep I rung school to find out when it officially finishes. Well for me its the 9th nov. I was still calm. Then i phoned studylink (current benifit peoples) and asked them when my last payment is. 14th dec. Well that was good news. So I proceeded to ring the unemployment peoples. 1 week stand down period and paid 1 week in arras (another week without money). Thats only 2 weeks. Altogether thats a LOT better than I initially thought it would be. I have an apointment with the unemployment peps and if I apply early I might not be without money by the sounds of it. So big ups to God. Amen!!!

PAST.......

Is the past ever truely gone or is it like a virus that just keeps coming back. To get over ones past. Thats a thought, but is it possible? Is it fessible? or is the past just pushed to one side every so often? I wonder. I really do wonder. God can get rid of our past. He can do anything. I know that, but why doesn't my past just dissappear. Dissappear for good! Prayer is good, but is there anything else I could be doing? Should be doing?

Still Board

Unfortuately things aren't going so well for me at the moment. I'm always board and seem to lack a purpose at the moment. Apart from being a cell leader, I can't seem to find a focus to be passoionate about. The boardums a real killer. What to do, oh what to do.

School or No School....

Hey, well I'm at school again in the adult classes at Hagley and I'm soooooooooooo board, so I'm thinking of getting a full time job. The only reason I'm still at school is to get qualifications to get a good job. Thing is, out of all the jobs I have looked at so far, the only one I like is being an usher. This upsets me because to do this you dont need any qualifications. I'm thinking I should have just got a job at the end of seventh form. Well this is the third year after that and still in school. Is this silly? I still don't know exactly what I want to do for sure and I'm still looking at the different jobs avalible. Maybe it's best to know the job you want to do at an earlier age. Hmmm. What to do? Any ideas. I'm sure others will know what I'd be good at. What do you think about all this?

I'M SO LONELY....

Hey, well now I understand where Rayd was coming from about the loneliness of not being around da Opawa family. I am staying at Adelles at da moment, but as she has been working I have been here on my own most of yesterday and today. With nothing to do it has been hard being on my own. I prefer company and this has been quite hard. Also it has given me too much thinking time in which I would have gone crazy had I not been crazy to begin with anyway hahaha. So anyway, yea. I feel for anyone who is ever lonely. Hugs to everyone at all times. Even when we aren't together. Bring back camp!!!! :(

Hey, I've been thinking a lot lately about letting go and trusting. It's been hard for me to let go of some hurts in my life and i am still stuggling a little, but God is helping heaps. I was looking in 'The Word for Today' and at the top of the entry it had: Learn to let go. So I read this and circled one thing: It's about fearing less and trusting more. I've come to realise that it's not about trusting others. It's about trusting God. Cuz once you fully trust God you can rely on him that everything else will be alright. That it's ok to trust when it is in his hands.

There's no need to fear anything when you trust God. Just remember Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

sorry. i meant chubby bunnies lol

Camp OBY 2005!!! - At Living Springs, Belbird Heights.
What a weekend! Great food, great view, great company. This weekend was so full of great stuff, I don't know where to start. Let's start with the fact that in da morning of camp I got to up make some yummy fudge. Choclate and russian. Yum! I think the russian turned out better, but people seemed to like both anyway. Another thing before camp is I think we forgot to pick up Scotty on da way to camp. Oppps!. Oh well. Dave did pick him up eventually. So all was good. hee hee. My highlights had to be getting to know my cell group girls just that extra bit better and the games. We played a game in da pool of basket pool. Was so funny. Some people didn't even know who was on their side. There were also prize games like the McDonald combo one. The combo of a burger, fries, and thick shake was all mixed up together and who could eat it the fastest. 1 girl against 3 guys and who won? Thats right the girl. Big ups to Liddia. Better luck next time guys. Another game was where the volunteers had to have one marshmellow (pascall hee hee) at a time and say: 'fluffy bunnies' was so funny. My boyfriend won of course. Yay him!!
Oh yea. Gaz and I are going out for all you people who haven't worked it out yet. Since da same day as Adelle and Dave's engagement in fact. Anyways, I'll carry on. yea so camp 05 was real great and I learned that I can really trust God and have my feelings heard. So yea.

Dreams

I had a dream a while ago that I was in a boat that had no front to it. I was in the front seat clearly looking straight into the water of a river/stream or something similar. It was a christian boat and there was a teacher who handed out some liquorish and we were asked to think about what each of them tasted like. The first two I was given were a pink and lighter pink . I remember noticing that they were very similar in taste. Then I was given a black part, like from those square Liquorices that had black and other colours. I remember thinking that this one tasted like the 'eyes of God'. (Weird ay!!!) Anyways it was at this point that this teacher guy went to this other girl and asked her what she had tasted. She said 'ring of fire'. Then they had a conversation of which I could not hear while I was thinking ' why isn't mine being interpreted'. That's pritty much it and then I woke up. Some people have already told me what they think the dream means, but I won't talk about that yet until I find out what others think. Don't want to influence your comments.